Like the Rays of Sun on a Clear Day

Sketch has a very active bath time.  When he takes a bath, he likes to slide his little body from the back of the tub to the front as quickly as possible, and watch the water swish and flow like waves in the tub.

Did I mention he loves to keep the water running the entire time, too?  What a mess!

Water  streams over the edges of the tub  like a powerfully driven waterfall, creating a mini ocean on the tile floor in the bathroom.

No place is dry, all the floor space has been touched by the overflowing bath water.

Sometimes the bath is Sketchs’ “happy place”.  When he’s in his happy place, watch out!

He’ll laugh and giggle but that does not even begin to express the depths of emotion he feels.  Because his little body can’t contain all that joy all at once, he adds to the giggles with squeals while jumping up and down on his tippy toes, gaining unbelievable heights. He flaps his arms with intensity that sometimes I wonder if he will fly, or maybe he can jump so high because his arms are helping him get air under his feet!  It’s like he’s trying to release some of the excess emotion, trying to keep his skin from exploding from the build up.

Sketch just lets it all out, unrestrained.  All the joy comes out one way or another, because he feels it, and he can’t contain it all. With the lack of social awareness, he just let’s it escape however it happens and doesn’t worry about what people think.

Unrestrained joy. Like rays of sunshine on a clear day, beaming from it’s core, not hindered by pollution or anything else.

You know how bright that would be?

Do we allow that amount of joy to be in us?  Or do we not experience it anymore?  Have we NT’s found some way to stifle the joy so we act “socially acceptable?”

I have heard that long ago, in biblical, times people expressed grief and joy much more extravagantly than we do now. People tore their clothes in grief, or danced naked in the streets (somethings are probably better off not done!).

We have a God who has exceeding joy, exceeding and indescribable love for us.  He doesn’t restrain his emotions. (Zeph 3:17).

We have a God who made us in his image.  So, I’m thinking Sketch has it right… He is not inhibited by social rules, he just is… He impacts everyone he comes in contact with.  No matter what their mood prior to seeing him, they are smiling and laughing with him. Maybe he is revealing a bit of Gods’ exuberance toward us in his joyful ways and happy dances. What if we took note of that, and really understood the depths of love and passion God feels for us…maybe we would flap too?

“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge–that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:17-19


  1. fiona2107 said,

    October 6, 2010 at 9:17 AM

    Oh Merri, this is just what I needed to read~!
    God spoke to me through this and of his indescribable immersurable love.

    I want to be just like King David and dance with no restraint!

    I was so impressed by the way that you let Sketch be exactly who God created him to be in the bathtub. That is just awesome.
    You allpwed him to be himself and that is a tryu gift of love..
    You’re an awesome mom and an inspiration to me.
    Fi 🙂

  2. fiona2107 said,

    October 6, 2010 at 9:19 AM

    Ugh, spelling mistakes all through that! Eeek


    aaah, I feel better now!

  3. Merri Lewis said,

    October 6, 2010 at 9:35 AM

    Thank you Fi! I needed it too, and Sketches extremes are sooo intense…as bursting as his “highs” are, his lows are just as intense. It seems to help to be able to step back and see how God reveals himself through Sketch, and makes the harder times easier to bear.

  4. Dearna said,

    October 8, 2010 at 10:48 PM

    I am new to reading your blog and I love it!It is one of my favourite things about Autism,the ability it gives my son to be unashamedly (?) himself.

    • Merri Lewis said,

      October 8, 2010 at 10:57 PM

      So true, they just are who they are, and it is so refreshing! Thank you!

  5. November 3, 2010 at 7:59 PM

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